It's good to be ALONE...

Let me start out by saying maybe it is because you find out who you are (You have no constant buffers to deter you from that) who your friends are....maybe because you realize who is one your side. I don't mean who will listen to your whining over and over, and all the stuff you need to settle in your life but who will be there to pick you up when times are so tough, ANYONE would know that a reach out hand would do wonders. I mean really what is it? Is it pride. Do we all have to be so tough? I know SOME people are crappy, SOME take advantage, SOME will even mislead the hell out of you...but does it really mean we have to be tough on those that are full of love to give, good intentions? A desire to live life to the fullest, laugh out loud and do what you must in the mean time while we get our dreams in order. Sadly I'm going to say yes. Regardless I refuse to be one of those....Don't get me wrong. "Let me clear my throat"....yah sing along... I will love, laugh, support, bend it better than Beckam, but if you push, stretch the rubber band, I am human, and well it will be time for me to let it go. I guess society is working on such an extreme basis...too tough, too soft, that they believe that there is no middle. It's simple you see. I've said it a million times. We ARE ALL on the same boat. Money, well it makes the world go round, love we need some sort that is the "umph" to drive us, laughter well that is just great release, and toughness it's good cause you can't let your self be beat, but really if you don't take a look around, and start to involve the people that matter, and I don't mean take on their crap, you are and will miss out. I have heard the saying it's better to be alone than unhappy. TRUE....it's great to be independant, but IT SUCKS to be so alone that you are lonely. All that does is make you go...'o.k. so I've been positive, I've worked hard, I've moved on, why would I want more people in my life to do this all over again' Right?

So here I am. Starting over, counting very few who will support, figuring out what is worth it, and wondering how long will I have to chill, and feel the hurt in my soul before the sun comes out?


"Tiene que Salir el Sol" T. Sanz

I live by observations. I live by my head and my heart, regardless my heart overpowers my head sometimes (But in the end I will never regret that)! I don't know really why people have to get a taste of you, and then you become just a someone, a now and then, a maybe never again. REALLY?! Did we have this discussion. DID I START this ? No! I disappear I become so well liked....really have we become a society where we have all been treated so poorly that you have to lose the good things in life to realize how great it is to have it (AT WHATEVER LEVEL)? Doesn't society realize that that severe of a push sometimes means you will not get that back. It won't be the same. It can't be rekindled.



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Intensions & Observations

Buenas Noches.
The story of intentions and observations continues. Isn't it funny how a sincere human being does the things that they do just because they want to, and society has let us down so much that people question nice acts?

Jobs, partnerships, relationships, they all work the same. To assist each other. Teamwork. I question when a third party questions my responsibility or have I thought things through??? Hmm, why do you ask? Are you unsure about the decisions in your life you'll live vicariously through mine? I don't mean those questions to guide and assist for the best results. I mean the ones that ask you to sacrifice yourself. Hmmm. Intentions?

Live hard. Love hard. Laugh hard. Pretty simple. Work, Play, Faith. Easy. Just remember that all I'm saying is take a step back. Remember that if you want something in life you have to go for it. Fear and all. Fear sometimes is what finally gets us off our tails. If you love someone tell them now, don't wait. If you feel like you are in the wrong place, and you have seriously given it a chance, get out. If you think there is something better for you out there, search for it.

We as individuals have to look out for ourselves. No one else will. We will have people support us, help us, tell them thank you, but they will not hold our hands, and do it for us. Don't confuse help with expecting something. Don't make people read your mind, just say what you have to say. I assure you that you will get farther in life if you are direct, honest, and work for it. Even those that just get lucky, for the few that do, and appreciate I tip my hat to you, for many they get things so easy, they mess it up just as fast at they got it.

Don't forget your manners. This is a life that we have all been given the opportunity to try, and try, and succeed. Guess what? If you fail...you can try again.

As the artist Thania Sanz says "Lo que ya paso, paso" What happened, has happened, and she goes on to tell you look in the mirror, and sometimes you'll have to accept change to become better. Go check it out. www.myspace.com/thaniasanz or my other page www.myspace.com/cathylu30 it's playing on that page.

This week we will talk about Relationships. I've been observing how everyone knows the answer, and so many young grasshoppers have it figured out....and you'll have to wait. :o)

Calm Down...SMILE TODAY

As a favorite song of mine says..."Mañana Vendra" it means "Tomorrow will come" Go BUY ALAS PARA VOLAR by THANIA SANZ (www.thaniasanz.com) and the song is completely translated by THANIA SANZ.

Listen life is about figuring out who you are...not forgetting yourself. I'll admit, I got lost, lost it. Take it as you wish. I am starting new. You never just leave or walk away from a marriage, partnership, relationship what ever you want to call it. You strive to live honestly. Move ahead. Of course you don't throw anything away. Yes marriage is good, bad, sickness, health...so is every other meaningful relationship in your life.

I was told how amazing enjoying life would be when I peeled away the layers of b.s. How much more will you enjoy if you stop, and take a good look at yourself?

The journey ahead is as one friend put it, a set of cards. Lucky, but.... THEY are just not set up right. I have to flip some over, discard some, etc. I'm no poker player can you tell? THE SOMEONE ELSE being left behind is ME. I'm leaving the person that lost the creative side, and just settled into a routine. I didn't challenge myself. You know what that made me selfish, selfish for not enjoying everything life has to offer. There are signs in life, some lessons, some times not feeling so great, that are ways that GOD (or whatever higher power or science you believe) tells you MOVE! DO SOMETHING! I'm doing it. I don't need to say anything else (I know funny on a blog) I just need to act. There has been enough discussion, and not enough action. I'm excited to see what the next 7 years of my life will bring. HELL, I'm excited to see what tomorrow will bring.

To answer some of the questions:
Nothing but myself was holding me back...so I'm stepping aside to give myself a chance. :o)
Of course I'll make up my own mind about my life. Thank you for saying that. I'm using this as observations about life. Can't move forward if you can't make up your own mind. Again as a wise person told me..."Focus, even when the ride is hard go for it!, learn how to live with yourself and you'll have sane relationships..."I could go on but you get the point and I'll say as this person said "BILL FOR SESSION"


INTENTIONS Bloggers. The end result may not always turn out as expected but it will definitely allow you to sleep at night. Know that you have put your best foot forward, and always give the relationships in your life enough credit to be honest/straight.

FYI I married my best friend. Someone that on my worst days still catches me.

Tired

Tired. That is the power of the testers in our lives. They want to see if they can tire you out of what your goal, intension, you get the point. Test, Test, Test, what is all that about? I really don't get it. Be straight. Get to the point. Don't waste my time, cause you are wasting yours too. Times are changing, and storms have come and left...the point is what have I learned. Well, the obvious is not what have I learned is am I putting it to practice (A wise person told me)? That is the hardest of all isn't it. We all now what we should do, how we should behave, and when to do things, but are we doing them??? I have learned that no matter how much you love someone, you can't love someone to better themselves if they do not want to. I have learned that no matter how good your intensions.... selfish, is selfish, and looking out for yourself is another thing. I have learned that if you threaten me then you'll lose. I know what roles I have played in relationships, and I do practice the rule of treat people how I wish to be treated, and be honest with them, because if you can't be direct with someone then don't waste your time, or thiers as I stated before...I'm moving on. I'm dropping all the negative. I'm not saying you can't have a bad day, I am saying don't make your bad day my fault. Get it? Got it? Good?

Go jam out to some good music now would ya?