It's good to be ALONE...

Let me start out by saying maybe it is because you find out who you are (You have no constant buffers to deter you from that) who your friends are....maybe because you realize who is one your side. I don't mean who will listen to your whining over and over, and all the stuff you need to settle in your life but who will be there to pick you up when times are so tough, ANYONE would know that a reach out hand would do wonders. I mean really what is it? Is it pride. Do we all have to be so tough? I know SOME people are crappy, SOME take advantage, SOME will even mislead the hell out of you...but does it really mean we have to be tough on those that are full of love to give, good intentions? A desire to live life to the fullest, laugh out loud and do what you must in the mean time while we get our dreams in order. Sadly I'm going to say yes. Regardless I refuse to be one of those....Don't get me wrong. "Let me clear my throat"....yah sing along... I will love, laugh, support, bend it better than Beckam, but if you push, stretch the rubber band, I am human, and well it will be time for me to let it go. I guess society is working on such an extreme basis...too tough, too soft, that they believe that there is no middle. It's simple you see. I've said it a million times. We ARE ALL on the same boat. Money, well it makes the world go round, love we need some sort that is the "umph" to drive us, laughter well that is just great release, and toughness it's good cause you can't let your self be beat, but really if you don't take a look around, and start to involve the people that matter, and I don't mean take on their crap, you are and will miss out. I have heard the saying it's better to be alone than unhappy. TRUE....it's great to be independant, but IT SUCKS to be so alone that you are lonely. All that does is make you go...'o.k. so I've been positive, I've worked hard, I've moved on, why would I want more people in my life to do this all over again' Right?

So here I am. Starting over, counting very few who will support, figuring out what is worth it, and wondering how long will I have to chill, and feel the hurt in my soul before the sun comes out?


"Tiene que Salir el Sol" T. Sanz

I live by observations. I live by my head and my heart, regardless my heart overpowers my head sometimes (But in the end I will never regret that)! I don't know really why people have to get a taste of you, and then you become just a someone, a now and then, a maybe never again. REALLY?! Did we have this discussion. DID I START this ? No! I disappear I become so well liked....really have we become a society where we have all been treated so poorly that you have to lose the good things in life to realize how great it is to have it (AT WHATEVER LEVEL)? Doesn't society realize that that severe of a push sometimes means you will not get that back. It won't be the same. It can't be rekindled.



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College Football Saturday Thoughts

"Oh brother" that is all I can say about some comments through out the various sites. Everyone is entitled to their O P I N I O N S...careful about what words you choose...WHY? Figure it out.

I am truly blessed to have the relationships in my life that I have...I love that I am surrounded by people of faith, love, family, and positivity. I am blessed to be surrounded by very faithful people that realize to appreciate GOD or whatever higher power you choose, you don't have to jam it down someone's throat or make it a point to explain all the time. Having faith or beliefs all you have to do is take those lessons of life, and faith and apply them to your day to day interactions. It's not how hard you practice at your faith, it's whether or not you are truly learning and living as you are being taught. Many are not, and say they are.... Always take the higher road, and never poke at someone's ego. That is all I will discuss about this topic because faith is different for all of us. What level, how we express it, where we go...all in all. Live what you are taught, and practice what you preach. Better yet don't preach, listen, support, guide.

Happiness....it is what you make of it. It is enjoying the moment, and striving for more...it is so many things.

Other than that again. I had everyone I needed around me last night. Thank you. Thank you my friends for your kind words, your constant support, and warm kindness. I look forward to many more great conversations, laughs, and growth. Not too much to say today...Just trying to absorb all the major changes and all the new things coming our way.

So pour a glass of bubbly and celebrate cause today is the when the old comes to an end , and the new, wow boo, I can't wait!

Amen Sista!

No kidding. It truly is amazing. The politics of certain elements needed to get something approved. Sometimes I think companies are wanting trouble. I mean really. If I were to follow...lets say a process to a certain company to get something approved, and they were trying to categorize it the wrong way to avoid payment. Don't they realize that there is still a trail of paperwork for the person following a correct process, to achieve the best results to complete that particular account/claim? Don't they want you to better the situation to resolve the matter? Do you want to spend more money trying to get out of something, than finding the quickest resolution and paying a much smaller price? I THINK NOT!!!

O.K. I promised about relationships. Oh my young grasshoppers it has been fun listening. In relationships of ANY KIND...it will all depend. Stand on your ground, but you can not enjoy life if you have everything in a "this is how it's going to be". Haven't you all figured out yet that life will throw you curve balls???? I mean if you are in a routine where you know even when you are going to "poop" are you really living your life, and enjoying your relationships to the fullest?

Sometimes, events will happen in your life that you never imagined. Events that before you were ever in a relationship where you were IN love not just lust, or like, love ya, you promised you would just walk out. But the thing about relationships is that is all DEPENDS. were they jerks, did they just make a mistake? I mean really. Can you call your self perfect? I mean we all try to be our best, and do our best, but again I will say even with the best intentions, sometimes some pretty bad things happen and not to be negative, sometimes some amazing things happen.

I've heard conversations about cheating...ha what a topic. People think that cheating is just about a sexual relationship. Um, nope. Did you know that if you confide in someone more than you confide in your partner/what ever your relationship then that is actual cheating also? Yep. I hear that SEX is so important in a relationship...Listen I will be the first one to tell you if it was a required daily meal most everyone would be happy, but it is only P A R T of the whole picture. Everything in a relationship, talking, sharing, intimacy etc. It all has to have it's distribution in a relationship. Too much of one thing and none of another is called being an extremist. Nothing when pushed to an extreme works. It just irritates. If you can't understand let me give you a few examples. If you work too much you are probably missing some key elements in your personal life. Missing out. If you are all about friends and family with no balance, you work will probably suffer. If you use your cell phone all the time, no matter how many free minutes you have it will cost you a lot in the long run. If you work out too much you can harm your body instead of getting it healthy. Get it? If not goodnight. If yes, proceed.

For those of you that SEX is just SEX. Hmmm. Good I guess. But I can't understand why you would say that you would drop someone if they cheated on you, "if sex is just sex" . Maybe you can explain that one to me.

Also all relationships work different. So don't judge those that go outside of what your "norm" entails. It might surprise you that there are many variety of relationships that actually have it figured out on how to feel like you just fell in love, and how to keep it fresh. As long as the rules in those relationships have been set, and things are clear between the people involved it will be a fine relationship.

Next time. Forgive, Forget, Forward, Friends with....

Tired

Tired. That is the power of the testers in our lives. They want to see if they can tire you out of what your goal, intension, you get the point. Test, Test, Test, what is all that about? I really don't get it. Be straight. Get to the point. Don't waste my time, cause you are wasting yours too. Times are changing, and storms have come and left...the point is what have I learned. Well, the obvious is not what have I learned is am I putting it to practice (A wise person told me)? That is the hardest of all isn't it. We all now what we should do, how we should behave, and when to do things, but are we doing them??? I have learned that no matter how much you love someone, you can't love someone to better themselves if they do not want to. I have learned that no matter how good your intensions.... selfish, is selfish, and looking out for yourself is another thing. I have learned that if you threaten me then you'll lose. I know what roles I have played in relationships, and I do practice the rule of treat people how I wish to be treated, and be honest with them, because if you can't be direct with someone then don't waste your time, or thiers as I stated before...I'm moving on. I'm dropping all the negative. I'm not saying you can't have a bad day, I am saying don't make your bad day my fault. Get it? Got it? Good?

Go jam out to some good music now would ya?